hey thanks guys.. those who offered words of consolation.. and thanks min.. for ur words of encouragement... we shall work hard together.. if all else fails.. we shall just erm.. stick to rubbish rugby ?? hahaha..

anyway... it was a pretty slack saturday.. yeah... i lurrrrrve slack saturdays.. met up with hueimin aka dear ( and in case u think i'm un-straight... just for the record.. i AM straight ) and lindy... went to dear's place for lunch.. had pasta and mushroom + roasted garlic soup !! *yumyum*

it was goooooood to meet up with them.. lindy's still sooooo sooooo crappy.. hm too.. haha.. good to see that ntu hasnt killed their lameness... i appreciate every bit of lameness now.. to spice up my very boring and monotonous life.. yeah.. then we have our usual gossip session... hahaha.. it's all about asking where so-and-so is.. what so-and-so is doing.. that kinda thing... and i relished every minute of it.. cos i've been missing these times .. since nus..

*sigh*

nice to meet up with these old frens.. and thank goodness we live near each other.. so it prob makes it easier to meet up i suppose

i donno how my life would be if i had none of these people who i appreciate so much around me... as it is.. i hardly have anybody in nus that i can really be at a comfortable level with ( sounds pathetic? yeah.. i know ) so i'm really thankful for all these friends.. which i've made over my 18 years of life.. and which is why.. i make effort to keep these friendships going.. cos i know.. if i ever need somebody to be there... i doubt i can find anybody in nus ( excluding my old frens who ARE in nus.. ) who i can confide to.. so just wanna thank all of you out there... just for the friendship and the great times that u've given me.. they'll always be memories in my heart.. haha.. uhm.. i'll try to remember la ah.. as it is.. min will know that my memory kinda sucks.. haha.. but i prob choose to forget some of those silly things which i did last time.. so it's called selective memory

HIAK HIAK

Currently feeling quite awful.. i don't know why..It's prob cos of rugby.. Played so darn darn horrible today.. what i call rubbish rugby.. seriously. Made so damn alot of mistakes.. totally didn't know what the hell i was playing.. i also dunno why i played the way i played..

i'm not dying to get onto IVP.. but it's just that for once.. i want to have a feel of what it's like to play competitively.. to play with an aim in mind.. and of course to play properly.. not crap rugby.. like what min said.. no point playing if u don wanna improve ..

yeah.. so i guess that's why i'm so affected.. cos i know that i don't play that bad usually.. i'm not good.. but i'm not THAT bad either.

and i get intimidated by the other people.. cos they're all so darn good.. it's like when u play with them.. i dunno whether to call for ball anot.. cos these people always have some big  plan in mind.. and i don wish to screw it up for them.. yeah.. so people always tell me to communicate.. it's kinda ironic i guess.. i know i have to communicate.. but i just don't know when is a good time to call for the ball.. as it is.. it's always a bad time when i call for the ball...

and even tho they said that those who don get shortlisted are encouraged to go down for trainings as well.. but to me... i know i'll feel very out.. like the way i felt back in nj.. there's this team thing.. and this not-in-the-team thing..

all this prob don't really mean much .. or you may think that it's not such big a deal.. and there are lotsa worse problems that i can possibly have.. true.. i agree.. but then for now.. just let me sulk yea...

off to dinner now. food's beckoning to me.

Sigh... so sway today man.. Really... pissifying man.. Supposed to have oral defence today ... but what the hell i din know abt that.. so just xian my way through.. yeah... it was bad. My whole proj's totally screwed. And i bet even the teacher think so la.. shit.. even cher how said that my grp reli die liao loh.. so terrible rite.. Sigh... So it's not only me.. other people think so as well.. dumdeedumdeedum... dont know how also. Shall see how the conference with the tutor goes..

And i thought that was bad enough.. So was looking forward to meeting Peiyun for lunch.. Yeah.. Went to Munchie Monkeys... cos that girl wanted to eat there.. and i thought the food there beats the food anywhere else on campus... so i also didn't mind..

But the most pissifying thing was.. i waited for soooooooo sooooooooo damn bloody long for the food that i have to end ta-baoing the food.. Not to mention that i was bloody late for my chem tut as well.. Then ended up sitting in front cos everybody all shift to the back.. cos all dunno how to do tut.. *sHeeSh* Totally pissifying !!

Oooooh and that's not all.. i was sitting throughout class with perfect vision in one eye and blurred vision in the other la.. what the ?!
Cos my lens accidentally shifted in my left eye as i was talking to peiyun.. then i realised that how come my vision seem blurrer.. so i was wondering if the lens was still in place then py told me that she cldnt see it in my eye ! i was like... shitshitshit...

Was looking on the floor area around me... cldn't find it.. got extremely worried.. but realised in the end it was still in my eye.. somewhere at the corner of it... i also dunno how the hell it went there la.. must be i was trying to rub it back in plc then it prob went there..so i just took out the whole lens and placed it in the case.. cos me needed a mirror to put it back into my eye..

Yeah.. so today was bad.
screwed my project. late for class. contacts in one eye and not in the other. sat thru class with blurred vision.
was itching to close my left eye and just look with my right , but decided that it was prob a bad idea. yeah. with people ard.

glad to have ended the day at 1400hrs. Hurried outta the class as soon as i finished packing. Without saying bye or anything. *sigh* i think i'm really like.. how to say.. OUT of the class.. yeah... and i prob dont really give a very good impression to people.. but then again. heck it. I'm living for myself and not for other people. And you can't please everybody. but does it really matter what other people think of you ?

*shrugs*

but well.. the only good thing that happened today was meeting py... miss the girl lots.. all her corny and lame jokes .. her out-of-world comments.. *gosh* her usual comical way back in the nj... miss them all... wishing that i could turn back time now..

anyway gonna go do my phy online now.. another pain in the arse.. have to deal with this every single wk.. *sHeesH*

btw jessie .. .. meeting up for lunch this wk ?? and i think i'd reconsider again if i have to go to MM again cos u noe what.. it's the second time that i ended up late for class cos i was waiting so freaking long for my food to be served.

HMPF! no wonder it's service-charge free.

Tirrrrrrrred..... Was a pretty long day today ! Woke up at 6.20 (thought i was gonna be freaking late ! and it was my bro who woke me up la ! ) to go for lect... Actually not supposed to go for this math lect one.. cos it's not my assigned group lect.. but i don care ! this guy's so much better than my PREVIOUS one ! so horrible loh.. so decided to go for this ang-moh guy's lect! he's damn humourous.. so now i think i'm gonna enjoy math lect ! wheeeeeeeee.

yeah.. then went for chem lect ( surprise surprise ! ) haha.. then cher how saw me after lect.. stupid fella acted damn shocked to see me ! *tsk* or maybe he WAS shocked to some extent ! made thumb thumb go with me... hahah. then she sat there studying her math notes.. but then it was quite stupid la. shldn't have gone ! cos why ?? i miss so many lectures till i din know that they started on a chapter which i didn even have the notes on !!! what the hell rite ?! *SIGH*

which reminds me... have lotsa things to do over this weekend... SHIT.... notes to print ! so much catching up to do...sigh... ok... STOP IT !!! i shall deal with that later.. if not end up rambling on and on abt work

Squashed for an hour and 15 mins during my break with thumb thumb.. she's not bad leh... haha. can play loh... it was quite fun !! and lotsa funny things happened ! haha. OOPS. i accidentally smashed the ball into her head ! poor girll....hahaha.but we were both laughing over it ! and i think we seriously intruded on lotsa burial grounds loh...while we were playing.. we saw ants trying to move a dead moth..

then estella spotted a dead tail-less lizard at the front of the court.... haha. but that's not all !she spotted its tail a while later .. at the back of the court.. so we were wondering how the hell it can be separated fr the body so far ! haha.. then I deduced that the lizard prob was on the fan when it got switched on.. yeah.. horrible things prob happened to it..shall leave that to ur imagination...hahaha...

went swimming aft that as well.. feel so healthy.. but only did a few laps la.. not my usual.. NOOOO. quite tired already loh.. i not power woman ok... not like min.. went to munchie monkeys to eat later.. tee hee hee.. i ate my aglio pasta ( hey jessie they do have that ! hahaha. but without bacon ).. it's ... different fr pasta mania's but still pretty nice.. but waited so darn long for the food that i ended up 15 mins late for math tut.. arhh.. it's ok.. figured out that everyone's prob used to me being late for stuff.. muahahaha. who cares !

got a lift fr dad later on.. went down to the specs shop to chk my eyes.. and make my new specs! emporio armani wo! wheeeeeeeee. haha. sometimes i think i'm so spoilt.. *gosh* everything also branded.. tsk tsk.. such a bad girrrrrrl. haaha... but i carn help it la. it's innate.. it's nature... it's me...and me, needs to marry a rich guy nxt time.. or at least earn enough to support myself !

*sighsighsigh* super tired now.. i mean mentally... drained fr sch..don think i'll be able to do much thinking.. so shall go do some brainless and slack stuff .. shall go st on my ss readings.. yep.

i'm off !